Created in memory and celebration of the life of Drew Michael. He passed away at about 17 weeks. Hollie chose a white rose and turquoise, her favorite color. Drew’s parents held him for a brief moment at 19 weeks. Hollie told me that she gained comfort from the thought that Drew never knew anything but the heartbeat of his mother and the presence of Jesus.
One thing I am discovering in my conversations with parents that have lost a child is a theme of guilt. There is guilt from wanting a different gender, and therefore not wanting this baby enough. Or guilt from doing the wrong thing - carrying too many boxes up and down stairs (my personal guilt I still struggle with). What is the answer to this guilt? The only answer I have found is that God is both the giver and taker of life. It is neither my responsibility nor my guilt to carry. Through this truth I have found peace though the Enemy of my Soul wants to still hold me down with this guilt.
